That's Life...

Never thought I would feel like I do right now. Empty! That would describe it accurately I think. This whole concept I had on decision making is no more. It's pretty safe to say I have made quite a few mistakes with someone very special to me. No way I can do anything about. That junk ridden life led has caught up with me. Bit me in the ass as expected. Nothing surprising there I guess. I'm looking for a chance but maybe it's just a bit too late for it. A learning experience? I guess. Did I learn the lesson? Most definitely. There's no big secret here. It's just life on its own messed up terms.